arghhhhh!!!!

tlg la phm..sy xda hati kat dia..lgsg xda..nk sruh wat cmna lg??kalo awk dah xda hati kat sy its ok..fine..tp jgn kaitkn sy dgn dia lg..FULL STOP..x sangka smpai jd mcm ni..kalo dr awal tau nk jd cmni,sy xkn join program mcmf bongok tu..sy xkn bkwn dgn spa2 pun..menyesal..menyesalllllllllllll..........
its ok..sy akan hidup sendiri..sendiri..hati sy xkn terbuka utk org lain lg dah..biarlah awk yg terakhir..sy dah serik nk bcnta..kalo asek xjd..tlg la phm..cnta tu utk smpai ke gerbang perkahwinan..tp kalo stakat benti sparuh jalan x yah la nk bcnta..hati sy dah tertutup utk org lain..sekian..

awak...

sy x perlukan org lain utk teman sy..sy bole hidup sendiri tnpa perlu rapat ngn org lain..wlpn awk bz,its ok..sy bole tnggu tyme awk x bz...sy dah x mengada2 cam dlu..yg salu nk mntk masa awk utk bg pd sy..sy dah x mcm dlu..yg nk mrungut2 kalo sy x dpt apa yg sy nk..tlg trima sy yg skrg ni..tlg jgn ubah apa2..tlg jgn kaitkn hdup kita dgn org lain lg..tlg jgn bg alasan apa2 lg..tlg trima sy seadanya..sy bahagia dgn awk..dan sy x perlukan org lain utk bhgiakan sy..sbb sy dah ckup bhgia dgn awk..terima kasih awk..

utk abg~

abg..lagu ni adk tuju utk abg..deeply from my heart=)
 abg hayati taw lirik dia^_^

::hari ni::

DEAR ABANG,

adk x suka bla abg ckp bukan2..adk x suka bla abg mcm nk cari alasan utk jauh dr adk..adk x suka bla abg cm xhrgai usaha adk utk brubah..

adk sdey sbb kta gaduh psal bnda yg xda..adk sdey bla abg cm nk sruh adk jauh dr abg..adk sdey bla abg x trus trg2 awl2 tntang apa yg abg rsa tu..

adk tkot cnta abg pd adk dah xda..adk tkot adk ni cuma beban pd abg..adk tkot kalo kta makin jauh..adk tkot kalo abg dah xksah lg psal adk..

adk mntk maaf adk dah lukakan abg..adk mntk maaf kalo adk da kcewakan abg..adk mntk maaf dgn apa yg abg rsa tu..

adk syg abg..adk xmo bnda mcm ni jd lg..adk hargai smua usaha yg abg dah wat utk hbgn kita..adk tau abg x brniat nk wat mcm ni..i miss ur love~


                                                         with love,
                                                            -adik-


p/s: respon dr abg yg adk nk dnga :

dear adik,
     
" thanx sbb luahkn apa yg adk rsa..abg tau adk rndu abg..thanx gak sbb cuba   brubah utk abg..abg hrgai usaha adk..abg cuba utk bg skongan yg lebih utk adk..abg syg adk lg.."
                                  
                                                         i love you,
                                                            -abg-

..:today:..

today,i am feeling ignored and unacknowledged..they got something from u..i feel a bit unpleased bcoz of that..seems like they are more close to you compare to me..i suppose i also disappointed that u have been so busy lately..i really do apreciate how hard u are working and sometimes i start to feel like i am not important to you..i am afraid other things is more important than me..would u give me a hug and tell me how special i am to you?

sesuatu~

rsa tenang itu dah pergi..dan rsa resah kembali dtg..entah knapa..rsa mcm ada ssuatu yg hilang..ada ssuatu yg x kena..ada ssuatu yg kekurangan..tp apa???
mgkn d hati aku terasa kosong..kosong sgt..aku mmerlukan ssuatu..belaian...kasih sayang atau perhatian mungkin..bckp mngenai hbgn ni..bnyk yg dah hilang sbnanya..tiada lg kata2 manis..tiada lg kata2 rindu..tiada lg senda gurau..ke mana semua tu..komunikasi pun kurang..knapa x boleh jd mcm psangan2 bercinta yg lain??yg slalu calling2..at least ckp 'i love u' 'i miss u'..sgt iri hati dgn mereka2 yg masih dlm mood 'bunga2 cinta' wlpn dah bertahun2 bcnta..perlukah ssuatu hbgn tu mnjd kurang mesra dan makin kurang bila hbgn tu da semakin lama..realy miss that moment msa awal2 dlu..dlu jrg calling2..tp slalu jumpa..tp skrg..bkn stakat jumpa..calling pun xda..msj pun sgt jarang..rindu pun pendam sndiri2..so x heran la kalo aku rasa ssuatu yg hilang..dlu hal kecik pun ada tmpat nk ngadu..tp skrg kalo ada msalah pun cuma smpn dlm hati..or mgkn jd kan org lain tmpt luah msalah..like me,just luah prasaan kat diary yg lgsg x berupaya nk bg feedback..terasa bagai ledakan supernova..sy nak ketenangan..so badly =,(

dear diary part III

hari ni aku dpt ktenangan yg jrang2 aku dpat..thanx to Allah..i woke up early in da morning and do all the chores as usual dgn senang hati..non stop..xrsa penat pun..rsa puas hati..tp xsmpat abeskn suma keja..x mmpu..tgn cuma ada dua..sblm brangkat ke sana aku akan pastikan smua keja beres..so mama dpt la rhat nnti bila aku xda=) finally,today i got the book that i realy eager to read..tjuk dia 'men are from mars,women are from venus'..smoga buku itu dpt mningkatkn motivasi aku yg kurang motivasi ni..dan smoga dpt mematangkan aku yg xckup matang ni..sbnanya buku tu mengajar kita mngenali psangan..hope that book can give 'something' to me..so that i can know 'him' better..erm..xtau da nk bebel apa..goodbye deary diary=)